here's to the friends im lucky enough to have even though i dont deserve people this incredible....

This week I went up to Appalachian state university to stay with my friends michelle and Pam, and to see my friend Cody. Well actually, I rode up there on Tuesday with michelle and Cody. Since I attend a community college in my home town I see these people once every month or less. I'd forgotten how it felt to be around people who actually know me and don't just pretend to be friends with me (atleast I hope they don't), don't think I'm extremely quiet, and people that i have way too much fun with. Michelle is my best friend no matter what but I've realized how good of friends I am with PAM and Cody too. Michelle is loud and would marry her clarinet if she could (Haha) but aside from that she is completely honest with me, doesn't ever tell any secrets I tell her to anyone else, and she's always there for me whether to support me or just to hangout and have fun with. Pamela is just about the same way as michelle but she's also one of the friendliest people I've ever met. She will always say something to cheer me up which always includes the word honeybunn in it, she will do anything to help me or anyone with their problems and she's perverted enough to make you die laughing without feeling awkward....most of the time. Then there's Cody. He doesn't believe in personal space, will stare at you whether its creepy or not (Haha) and apparently claims to be secretly bitter...especially towards michelle. But aside from all that and the fact that I've only know him a year, he always makes me act EXTREMELY hyper somehow, I can't keep a straight face around him which is unusual for me, and he's always there to listen to anyone's problems. All three of these people have impacted my life in amazing ways and I just want to say that I truely appreciate and love each of them. I've only known each of them for either 1-3 years but they are the truest friends I have had and I don't deserve people as incredible as they each are. I know I'm not the "emotional-mushy" type of person but this week made me realize how much you all mean to me even though I don't talk to or see you that much anymore. I havent even known any of you THAT long but it doesn't matter. Thanks you guys for letting me come up there this week and, more importantly, for being my friends. You honestly dont have any idea how much it means to me and I don't know what I would do without you. If any of you ever need someone to listen or vent to, need someone to go to the doctor with you (mainly those who tend to have unknown illnesses every week), or if you just want to talk, I am ALWAYS here for you. I love you guys!!



P.S: if this creeps you out since its me saying it, I'm sorry.

taken for granted...

I've never completely realized how much I take for granted. I have done so many small and large tasks in my life ranging from learning to walk to starting college. But I ne'er actually sat down and thought about the fact that for so many of those things that have ended, there was that last day that I did each. You don't realize it but there was that last day that you did every single thing you did in the past. We never remember that day though because we move on. But what if we did remember ever time we did something for the final time? Would we regret it? Would we be thankful? I doubt it. I think if we were suppose to remember it then we would. However, that doesn't mean we should forget ever doing it at all. I wish it wasn't true but I will be the first to admit I take so many incredible things for granted. Things such as my home, food, life, my family and my friends. Everyone does whether they admit to it or not. Its sad that this is a fact. There's really no explanation for why we do it but there is a solution to it if you do it every day: take a step back, take a look at how much you have in your life to be thankful for, an think about how much they each mean to you. In my opinion, if everyone did this once a day then they would realize how incredible it all is when they go about their day. Life isn't something you're suppose to just let happen. Life is something that you are suppose to soak up like a sponge and enjoy every minute of it even on your worst days. Make a list of all the things you want to do before you did and get your butt out there and start doing them. What better time than right now?! Embrace it.

just thoughts i need to get out of my head....

* its incredible how universal music is. No matter what language, a single band can be lived in many countries.

* why do voices attract us to certain music types, musicians, people and anything else??

* I will be someone great someday, ill go places and, above all, ill do the things I'm scared of.

* why do girls cry when they meet famous people? Its weird.


* I'm dying to learn o play guitar.

* do dreams mean anything? I've had the same dream 3 times in two weeks.

* I hate chemistry and history. I history repeats itself then why don't we have a class about the current or, even better, the future?


* am I going to be alone forever?

* why are people so mean these days? The worlds scary.

* if you want to know if a musician is actually as talented and down-to-earth as they seem, watch them sing acoustically and if their eyes are showing that they're remembering what the song is about then they're real. I'm sick of these wannabes who only sing about sex and drugs...and tractors. Tell a story not a one-line song about nothing that you repeat over and over for 4 minutes.

* why am I so obsessed with England and mcfly?

* who are my real friends now that everyone's changed and turning plastic (fake)??

......okay, I'm finished. I had to clear all the thoughts out of my head so I can sleep. Well that's not all of them but a girl has to have some things she keeps to herself.

On that note, goodnight world.